We went out again tonight. I spent more than I wanted to. I really should have stuck with just having a drink. We made a plan to eat dinner before going to the gathering of friends at a local restaurant so we could save money by not eating out. Our plan was to just have a few drinks and socialize. Well Bryan did that, but for some reason I was tempted to look at the dessert menu and I ended up ordering some cheesecake. It was delicious, but I really did not need to order it especially since it was almost $7. I had also ordered two strawberry margaritas, but they were on special for $3.50 each so that was awesome!

I am already starting to regret ordering that cheesecake. I have have been “rewarding” myself with a lot of treat type foods recently. It has to be effecting my health in a major way. Pops, Candies, Cakes, etc… I guess I can blame it all on Halloween and its promoting of candies and sweets. I have been eating like shit these last few weeks, nothing for breakfast (not that I normally do anyways), a melted cheese sandwich for lunch, then something thrown together at dinner time. Hardly any protein, vegetables, or fruits. Basically lots of cheese and bread. Not the healthiest options.

I am never one to talk about food, or worry about diets but honestly I have realized how this shit eating and been effecting my mental health as well as my physical health. I really need to get off my ass and head to the grocery store with a proper shopping list in hand and spend a bunch of money on everything, as I have even realized how I am even out of some of the basics in my kitchen. No pasta sauce left, no good soups, Low on frozen vegetables.

I need to kick my ass into gear, and start with a “1 Bag, 5 Dinners” to give me some ideas of meals to make. Perhaps getting myself in order with recipes to try and use will not only make sure that I am eating a little healthier, but will also have me trying new ideas. I just wish I was not so tired at the end of the day to actually take the time to make “properly balanced” meals.